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Went to sleep last night listening to this song, and woke up in the morning to it as well. Coincidence, I think not! I've just felt really blessed these past few days. They have been long and will continue to get longer as we get closer to the opening, but God is just placing His arms around everything in the show. Every department, technical aspect and person is being pulled together by the Lord and it's going to be amazing. If He didn't wrap us up, the days would be never-ending trying to do Jonah on our own. God pulls it all together.

On a separate note yet still relevant, His comfort is so great. I love being able to just enjoy His presence in the secret place. It's somewhere that I would like to be more, yet cannot seem to get on track with seeking the Lord consistently. His Love and Grace are just so amazing and I want to spend more and more time with him.

Flame

What a word. I love flames, fires and all sorts of ember like stuff. It may be one of the most enjoyable things to watch. I could watch them for hours on end while doing nothing else. So then, why don't I let the fire that the Holy Spirit has placed inside of me explode over everything like a giant bonfire. (20 tons of wood or so) If I can watch a physical flame for hours, I should be able to watch the fire of God grow and move within me. Yet, so often I find myself pouring water over it, or suffocating it for my own selfish reasons.

Fire is also associated so very often with Looovvveeee. Sometimes I feel a bunch of flames(people) all over the place, and sometimes, I find it difficult to feel even one. That goes both for feeling loved, and loving others. My prayer is below.

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Why?

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Song is pretty much irrelevant to anything happening in my life, it's just so good.

A big question in my mind for a lot of things is Why? Why do I work, Why do I want to go to school, Why do I desire friendships and relationships, Why do I play video games, Why do I play music, Why do I like hot tea, Why do I like Orange Juice. I guess the answer to a lot of these questions is because it is pleasurable, enjoyable, makes me happy. But sometimes I want to be a little kid and ask, "Why is it enjoyable" well because music allows me to express myself. "Why does it allow you to do that" well because I can write or sing what's on my heart. "Why can you do that" well because God gave me the ability to. "Why did He do that" well because He wants us to glorify Him. "Why does He want that" well because He's God and He loves us. "Why is He God, and Why does He love us" He just does. "Why?" He's God. "Oh, okay(continues playing with matchbox cars)"

Hypocrite

I am a hypocrite, everyone is at some point in their life. Something that God has been laying on my heart recently is to live a genuine life. To live without lies, and deceit. So often I judge others, especially christians when I see them acting "out of line". Examples: often laughing, or making "dirty" jokes, lying about what happened, saying "i don't care about how I look" yet spending ridiculous amounts of time getting ready in the morning and spending ridiculous amounts of money on clothes, shoes, hats, accessories, etc. I judge others of these things, yet I am also at fault for all of them. ALL. It's like I have a switch that when I am in a good discussion or conversation I'm real, genuine, aware of judgement, hypocrisy, sin. But when I'm not thinking about it, I'm fake, a liar, judgmental, and a hypocrite. I want to live a whole, full, genuine life. It's so hard sometimes, but this is what I desire.

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Cool.

So, yesterday I was extremely busy after work with a friend's birthday get together and then just a hangout with some other friends. I didn't get home till 1 and I needed to sleep immediately to be able to get up for work the next day. I did jot some thoughts down that I wanted to share so here they are.

People are cool if you take the time to talk to them. The reason you think people aren't cool is because you haven't taken the time to figure out their coolness. As I get to know my friends at work more and more, they get cooler and cooler. Same with the people that I've known for longer than four months. It's just awesome to see how God has placed everyone in my life for a specific reason and purpose, which includes them being cool.

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Forgiveness

No one deserves forgiveness. Yet, if we ask God for it, we receive it. I'm dealing a lot with asking forgiveness from people because of my actions in the past and I believe God is working through this. Something that has caught my attention, probably because I work with it every day, is the story of Jonah. I mean, just think about Nineveh, a city that is entirely corrupt with thousands of people who have no desire to be righteous. Along comes an unwilling prophet to say they will be destroyed. The entire city repents and is forgiven. What?!?! That doesn't make any logical, fallen man, current societal sense. Yet God forgives. Even more so, when Peter asks Jesus how many times he should forgive someone. Peter probably thinks he's pretty righteous and generous with his number of 7 times. Jesus says, no no no, 70*7. So 490 times. No, not 490 times. Jesus' point is not a number, it's the fact that the amount of times you forgive someone should not matter, despite what he/she has done. Why is this? We are to live a Christ like life, and he did not put a limit on his forgiveness.

The show Jonah at Sight and Sound is going to be amazing. The entire world should see it.

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Lent

For lent this year( I have never really done anything for lent before), I am going to blog and write in my journal every day. Today I am just putting the idea of lent out there, and what I hope to accomplish through this time.

One goal is to establish writing my thoughts as a somewhat regular routine in my life. Second, I am going to be writing about what is on my heart and at many times, search out biblical ideas and truths through my own wanderings. I will also be posting a song a day that may or may not relate to what I'm talking about. This shall be fun.

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