Current Jam:
I spent this past weekend with Lindsay. We've been dating for a month now (which at times it seems incredible how fast 1 month went) and we're starting to uncover each others spiritual and emotional intricacies that make us who we are. Aside from being super excited to see her after 2 weeks and meeting many many new people (all of whom were great), I was really looking forward to a conversation that we had today. It began with talking about vulnerability and apathy and just more of an overall, "this is what I'm struggling with" kinda deal. Something that has been key in our relationship is God's faithfulness. I whole-heartedly believe that God brought us together for his glory. Whether we get old and die together, or we're only together a few more months, God has a plan and is teaching both of us something that we cannot be taught without pursuing this relationship. More importantly is the fact that God is revealing himself to me through Lindsay, in a way that cannot be understood without her.
The song above had been on my heart a lot recently after I heard it Friday night when it was playing in Katie's car when I was dropping Linds off with her. (maybe some background of what happened this weekend would be helpful. Friday I went to Eastern, got a tour and met some cool people, then went to an amazing campfire with more cool people before heading to lancaster to drop Lindsay off with Katie for the night. In the morning my friend Jarrod got married, which Lindsay, Katie, Jake and I attended. Post wedding and reception, Lindsay and I watched a movie at my house whilst awaiting Shelby to arrive at her house for the second of Lindsay's sleepovers in as many days. Sunday morning I played drums at two services at church and then played some good football before a great nap and then around 8 I headed out to meet Lindsay to head back to Eastern for the night. Back at Eastern I went to a worship service and then played Dutch blitz with Addison and Linds till maybe 1:30? I stayed with Addison and his roommates (cool guys) for the night and woke up around 7:45 to get up and go to breakfast with more people. After breakfast we were debating spontaneously driving to the beach but that was denied through availability of the current party, which turned out to be a better option because Lindsay and I then just traipsed the campus before settling at the base of a tree to indulge in the aforementioned conversation. Then I drive home.)(You may need to reread the beginning of this paragraph.) So whenever I had an opportunity, I was playing the song "Never Once". It is such a declaration of who God is to me all the time, even when I don't necessarily realize his presence. It reminds me that there has never been a time that I was alone. Even though I may feel so, it hasn't happened. That's not because of God not revealing Himself, It's because of me not seeking Him. As I was spending my time with Lindsay I continued to meditate on the lyrics of the song and apply it to our relationship. Even though she was at school and i was being a bum at home, we weren't alone, we are together. While we aren't physically right beside each other, my thoughts, prayers and actions are focused in such a way that we are. God reveals himself all the more through this because the action should be the same. Except, God is physically beside me at all times, though not visible, or necessarily tangible, He can be felt, He can heal, He can speak, He can listen. "You are faithful, God, You are faithful."
