Balance

Current Jam:


This song just speaks to me as a person, as one half of a relationship or friendship, as a part of a small group, as a part of the body of Christ. We each have our own, unique voices that are beautiful, and when we put them together it creates more beauty and wonder.

The question then becomes, how loud do I sing, how quiet, which harmony. The trick is finding that balance that evens out the scales, keeps the teams fair, allows siblings to have the same amount of dessert.

Balance is the current theme running through my mind. How to balance the transition from camp to not camp, from community living to my own room/house, from seeing Linds every day to every couple days, every week, every 2 weeks... Not saying that not being able to see her all the time is a bad thing, just different and causes me to shift my weight to balance a boat. Sometimes I'll shift too much and the boat will flip, but thus is life. Just get back in and keep going.

I was reading in Matthew 5-7 today (the sermon on the mount) and some verses stood out to me.
Matthew 6 "19Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal, 20 but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."
The balance the incurs when we live in a materialistic society in the United States, where I have money to buy lots of stuff, and have lots of stuff worth more money than I have to spend. With all the stuff that there is, where is the balance? Where does the line come in that shows that I'm storing up on earth? I'm definitely attached to my computer, guitar, car. I guess I should let them go because they can rust and be stolen? I'm just having a hard time fully comprehending the truth and value in this verse. I also have a hard time thinking I'm fine where I'm at because so many other people have stored up way much more than I have and therefore I am better than them. That's when I think about India, Africa, Asia. What do they have to store up? Food? Dirt? Fabric? No, They are storing up treasures in Heaven. Love, Hope, Generosity, Humility. I want to desire these attributes in my life. I just have to find that balance.

Party Rock

I can't get this song out of my head.



It's been a while since I have endeavored to put my thoughts and feelings and emotions into a somewhat sensible, written form. I am not going to attempt to conquer them tonight but I just thought that I should let you know that I plan on getting back into writing often since I am not consumed with Camp. Some things that you readers should know that has happened since last writing are: I have a current furious passion for great chill, celticish music. I have a long standing desire to pursue Music in some shape or form while furthering my education somewhere that has yet to be looked into. I just finished my fifth summer at Black Rock Retreat. It was one of the most trying summers yet because of a switch up of my role from counseling to program, however it was the most rewarding summer in terms of growth and relational bonds formed and strengthened. I am in a relationship with an amazing person!