Emotion

First off, I would like to marry Imogen Heap.

Secondly, I've recently been going through a lot of my music and finding a lot of great stuff such as Imogen Heap, Ingrid Michaelson, The Civil Wars, Alexi Murdoch, Adele, Fleet Foxes, Ben Rector, Elenowen, Snowden, etc. There is a lot. I had become so obsessed recently with making music sound good or be fun and catchy that I had forgotten that there is a ton of emotion put in to these songs. It is a form of art, which makes it a place full of expression.

More on Emotion. A lot can be felt through a simple face expression or text or word. I'm not saying that this is just now hitting me for the first time, but I'm just noticing it more recently, probably because I put too much meaning into anything. "Could that girl that sent me a text the other day mean something more than what she said or should I take it literally." We've all been there. Is there a deeper meaning behind those words, that expression, those pixels. Then once it takes hold of you, emotions just flow and take you farther away than what you ever wanted to go.

Emotionally recently, I've been reminiscing through high school. I read through my senior play, Robin Hood today, I had other reasons to read through it, but I got slightly emotional because I remember playing that part of Little John with those people and being at this part of the stage during this line and it was really fun. I can't let my emotions live there. I wouldn't make any progress in the present if I let myself dwell on what has been. I've got to be myself, and sure, that means reading between the lines that are between the lines at times and assuming things in my head(similarly to Kurt in Glee if you watch Glee (except not Gay)). I'll just keep living, letting my emotions out on here and into the ears of some fantastic friends that are out there.

Funny, Imogen Heap's album which that song is taken from is called Speak for Yourself.

B.James

Quick Rebuttal.

So this song completely entices how I feel/have felt. It's like, so true that it almost has to be false.

Now, what I wanted to reemphasize was the part about God's love and how that's all you or I really need. I recognize that God's love is better than any other love I can find, and I do strive to live in his love. However, often times, I find myself not wanting to because I want worldly love, human love, love that won't last but a lifetime. It has really started to eat away at me, this desire for a girlfriend. I'm not "desperate" because I'm not going to settle for just anyone, but I definitely want someone to enter the picture in this role. I feel as though I have been close to that role with a couple different people in the past year or two, but as I said in the last post, due to circumstances and such, they didn't happen. I don't want that ending, it feels, unfinished, incomplete, open. Back to the song, it has a lot of feeling in it, but in a sadish pop melody, which is why I love it, because to teens, it's so tragic and I like tragic, even though, my feelings would definitely be more of a death metal were they to be turned into a song. I'm tired of waiting for a happy ending.